With my week fast over, I see how easy it is to fall back into old habits if you donr catch yourself. I hope I become more conscious of how high I prioritize food over God and that i may chance my ways.
As I make my way back down to MD, there is an email that awaits me. Its my decision for an summer internship I applied to. As positive as I try to be in the aspects of my life, for things like this I always assume the worst.
I don’t know why but I want this internship very badly. I think it’s because sometimes when you’re constantly hearing “no” from others, it strengthens you but at the same time it really hurts your self esteem.
I prayed to God that it may be His will that I get the internship. I pray it is His will and that if God forbid it isn’t– that He may provide me with opportunities this summer that lead me in the path of what he wants me to do for my career.
The anxiety is choking me, but I am just too scared to check .Today I needed a passage to encourage me and I came across Hebrews 6:9-10 :
“But beloved, we are confident of better things concerning you, yes, things that accompany salvation…For God is not unjust to forget your work and labor of love which you have shown towards His name”
I have to remind myself that MY way and GOD’s way are not always in alignment . What He wants for me is unknown to me but I know it is a plan that fulfills glory and I want to honor that. I never want to let HIS WILL get blinded by my wants but I pray that they might align.
God is good all the time, when we get what we want and even when we want. I was just telling my friend yesterday that it is not about how you praise God when you good things happen but how you praise him when good things DON’T happen. I pray that whatever the outcome is , though I may be upset for a while, that it doesn’t stop me from praising God.
I am going to check my email in a few hours. Whoever is reading please pray for me and also don’t forget to thank God for the life and grace He has given all of us! Oh how He love us!💕